Now I've never really written a blog for other people's benefit, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy people's reactions, I think more people than I appreciate do actually read it. It's possibly reduced my conversation topics at work now though
However
The negative side of my blog being published in my name, albeit a slightly elongated and regal version is that I cannot write anything that I'm not happy for everyone to read. And why would I want people to read everything I'm thinking about, well tbh I'm not entirely sure.
One of the most overused phrases in modern conversation is 'tell me to mind my own business if you like, but'.....I'll be honest, when someone says this, a lot of the time they get the full story...as long as they're not a total nob jockey
I do find it amazing though how many people are suddenly interested in you when there's some gossip to be had. I think it's a subconscious desire to know that someone is worse off than you are, a desperate bid to make them feel better about themselves
Well here's where I've been the last few days, and ultimately why things could be a lot worse
My daughter, my baby daughter, turned 4 yesterday. 4!! I'm not gonna say it feels like only yesterday I changed her very first nappy, gave her her very first bath, or first felt her suckle on my nipple....what?.....too far?.....OK!
But it doesn't, it doesn't feel like yesterday, it feels so long ago. So long ago that I was her absolute world, or at least 50% of it. When she relied on me and her mummy for everything (her mummy and I if you want to be anal, but hey she's 4, give her a break) unable to walk, talk, or even roll over.
It feels so long ago, but in the same way, it seems impossible that in a little over 2 months she'll be starting school. Her first proper steps to growing up, and becoming even more independent. But it's an adventure that I'll do my utmost to be a part of
This Sunday was her birthday, and I was lucky enough that she stayed with me on Saturday night so I got to wake up to her early (maybe a little too early) on her birthday. I even got a few precious photos, where she's smiling and seems just lost in happiness. Ok, I bribed her to smile by saying she wouldn't get any breakfast, but the camera doesn't show that.....so apparently the camera can lie
We spent the morning with my parents and brother, picking out and then fitting out a new 'Build a bear' teddy, a Princess teddy no less, Rapunzel Bear to you. This was followed by lunch and then back to mummy's house
Whilst not her proper party, that's next week, a little gathering was organised by her mummy. Family and some close friends were there, and a great time was had by all. To be totally honest I struggled a lot with the day, I was a guest at my daughters 'party' in a house I used to call home. But the party went fantastically, and the house has been improved no end since I left....the house was probably glad to see the back of me in fact
Amelia had a fantastic day, was very spoilt, and thoroughly enjoyed every second of it. Well, except for the fight about clip on earrings, but hey, they were mine and I wanted to keep them on
So it was that I went into work today feeling a little melancholy, a little less than my usual positive cheery self, what?. However, my focus soon changed upon hearing some devastating news regarding a colleague of mine. Her husband passed away from cancer at the weekend, after a lengthy battle that they thought he'd beaten, I believe he was 52!
Suddenly other problems seemed less important.
More determined than ever to make the most of my time with her, I spent a fantastic afternoon with Amelia today. We went geocaching, or treasure hunting in 4 year old terms. It's the 3rd time we've been, I think, and I can't recommend it enough, it's a mini adventure, kids love it and most importantly it's free. I'm sure it'll be the 3rd of many more trips
Dropped back to mummy's, leaving me to an evening of reflection....and some 10 stone testicles.
I guess my 'thought(s) for the day' is
'Only ask someone what's up if you genuinely care and want to help them, not to make yourself feel better'
'Be happy for other people. Don't feel bad that they've achieved more than you, but instead be happy that they have had success'
And most importantly
'Cherish every moment with those that you love, we genuinely do not know when our time may be up, and you only get so long on your 'death bed'.....it's never long enough'
Funny pictures don't seem so suitable today, so I'm gonna be vain and just include pictures of me
Bye bye for now
1 comment:
I think you're right Ray. Without a specific subject matter, I think my blog was always be very diary like
I chose to write in my own name in order to promote it as much as possible, and maybe even cause some debate along the line
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